...we live by passion and not by law... (3spacestoosmall) wrote,
...we live by passion and not by law...
3spacestoosmall

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Long time no talk... It seems that as soon as I get a computer to write on the goddamn thing breaks down... But now I'm writing on AJ's laptop... Shh, don't tell!! Anyways, there's not a lot going on in my life. I have a semi boyfriend... His name is AJ and he's 25.. I know I know, you guys are probably tripping out about his age but I'm used to these things already!! It's really weird because I was kind of iffy when he and I started because, I don't know why, but I was. But then I came home from a weekend with me and could hardly sleep because he wasn't laying next to me... holding me... I was really weirded out becuase I have NEVER been that way before... It scares me...

I'm afraid of letting my walls down again... I don't want to get hurt.

But he's the same way... and he's so sweet to me and a complete gentleman... I miss him so much... I haven't seen him since Saturday and I can't wait until he calls me today... I long to hear his voice.

I have recently come to grips with an Anarchist style of life. I have fallen out of the "things will change" aspirations and just realized that our republic-democracy will always be fucked. Our country is ultimately a monarchy... with the electoral college, the rich choose which rich person to put into office. I just wish that one time someone REAL would run for candidacy... But I doubt that that will happen in my lifetime until that special day that I run for office... which will also be the day that I give up on my anarchist aspirations... what a sad story, always having to give up on something... :(

I am currently suffering from an insane kidney infection, which scares me given that my bloodline ALSO suffers from insane kidney issues... I just don't want to end up doing at home dialysis when my kidneys decide to fail and get cut out... I don't want to be like half of my family...

I have 89 days until my last day of high school... I don't think any of you could possibly comprehend how much this means to me... I'm even counting down!!

I am flying into New York on March 30th to go stay with Nikki and Aaron (t0aster_strudel and mystery_action) and I cannot WAIT for that either...

I've just recently applied to Mid-Michigan Community College to get my pre-req's out of the way... And I've also applied to Evergreen State College in Olympia, WA so as to get the fuck outta Michigan... Hopefully I get accepted... I'm hoping that I do...

There I go with my hope again.

Um.. I don't really know what else to say, I don't lead that interesting of a life... All I can say is live long and prosper...

Also, in light of my new discovery of THe Church of Euthanasia...

Save the world--Kill Yourself!

haha, how fucking ridiculous...

<3ana<3
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